A long time ago it was the books.

Then (and still) it was Creative Memories.

And now… Mary Kay.  (How many of you have ever had a four year old son who can not only spell Mary Kay, but also recognize it?) 

Here’s the thing.  I signed up with Mary Kay because I like the products and I wanted the discount.  Now that I am involved with it, I am ready to go full force.

But I waver.

The scrapbooking thing hasn’t been super profitable for me for a few reasons:

1.I never saw it as a big money maker– just wanted to get my stuff at cost

2. Not everybody scrapbooks.  Some people have a negative association with scrapbooking. Many that do scrapbook don’t like Creative Memories 

3. I don’t know.  I’m boring?  I get really LOW sales at my CM parties.

(I love the products by the way, feel free to order directly from my website and have it sent to you.) 

So I love the CM stuff and I don’t want to quit.  But I love Mary Kay too.  And I get a bigger discount/comission.

Here is my problem: I have high expectations and I fear failure.

Part of me is optimistic, thinking "everyone has a face," "no one has ever said they don’t like Mary Kay– they usually love it" "Mary Kay parties are way fun," "Bigger commission means same low sales get bigger rewards."

The other part of me is like, "you haven’t been successful yet, why would it happen for you now?" "People are burnt out on all your little ‘businesses’"  "You’re still boring, you’ll be just as boring at this."

I keep waffling between being really scared and monstrously excited.  Why is this?  

I know what it is like in this type of system.  Yet I find it totally valid, and know that others have made it work for them.  I don’t even want to make a lot of money, I just want a consistent and steady business.

Am I crazy?

Any thoughts?