I am. It’s been written in stone.
So ever since we moved back to the rainy place, I have not once had my entire house in a state of cleanliness, I have accrued numerous late charges for past due bills, I have forgotten to help my son turn in homework more than once and have been generally disorganized and forgetful. I should probably stop reaffirming this by blogging it and talking about it, but I think acknowledging it might help?
So I signed up a couple of weeks ago to buy six loaves of bread for a homeless shelter service project we’re doing it at church. I figured I could commit to bread. Casserole, baked goods? No way, too much effort. So bread it was. I mentally noted it for many days. I wrote it down. I told the hubs. It is on my big calendar: SIX LOAVES OF BREAD. I got an email a couple days before, followed by a phone call (I kind of brushed the gal off, because geez.. I am SO going to remember) I even reminded myself the DAY OF that I needed to go to the store to get the bread.
Come 5:30 I get a knock at the door. Whoever could this be? I think.
Not-forgetful woman(in a hurry): Stephanie, did you get the loaves of bread?
Me: No.
Not-forgetful woman: Okay, I’ll just run to Safeway.
And then she bolts. Leaving me feeling like a heel listening to the pouring rain.
My word. What is wrong with me? I can’t even do service by buying bread?



I think that’s the saddest thing you’ve ever written…
Also… what’s with all these late fees?!
Comment by elecorn — October 16, 2008 @ 4:38 pm
You know, there are seasons of life when we can do good deeds for others and really be on top of things and fulfill most of the ‘oughts’.
Then there are seasons of life where we need to simplify our commitments, reflexively saying ‘NO’ to anything beyond basic hygiene and nutrition.
I got permission from a wise person to let myself be in the the NO season. It was very freeing.
I give you permission.
Comment by :: Suzanne :: Adventures in Daily Living :: — October 16, 2008 @ 9:45 pm
I like the thought of being in the NO season. Take Suzanne’s permission and run with it. (After you go run to the store to buy six loaves of bread to make up for missing it.)
Comment by patois — October 17, 2008 @ 5:20 pm
OH how you just described me to a T in this post. My brain almost turns off on purpose in times like those!
I will come clean & organize, your house if you come and clean mine:) It’s like I can see the mess better at other people’s houses. My own stuff is just invisible. Until I fall over Thing 1’s trucks.
Not so forgetful woman will have her day to forget too, don’t you worry
Comment by JD — October 20, 2008 @ 12:01 am